Today – Monday, August 29th, 2011: The new chapter in my life that is being a Working Mom.
The day that I have been dreading… since oh probably since the stick turned pink (yes, yes I AM a drama Queen) but truly, since the day I found out I was having a baby all I wanted was to be a stay-at-home Mommy and dreaded the reality that said that was a pretty much certain impossibility….
SO today arrived. I woke with a knot in the pit of my stomach. Jude and Daddy (who was on Jude duty today) both got up with me. We all got ready together.. felt like a regular morning (almost) then while Jude and Daddy snuggled for Jude’s morning bottle (normally the picture looks slightly different – ie… Mommy is snuggling) Mommy hugged her men goodbye and headed off to work.Is ANYONE shedding a tear with me right now? Anyone!??? Come on now.. don’t be heartless…..
I had a fabulous morning. Truly – despite my turmoil of leaving Jude (which we’ve already established
was is considerable) I am really enjoying my new position. It is TOTALLY up my professional alley, the work is great, the people that I am privileged to work with are great (yep still in the honeymoon phase.. so no one burst my bubble!) and the potential of what this job can become is exhilarating.
At lunch time I came home. Jude clapped his hands and made a beeline for me when I walked in the house.. SOOO happy to see his Momma. (together now… AHHHH) which of course made me happy 🙂 BUT the little stinker was NOT sad… I mean really couldn’t he have shed a single tear at the fact that his PRECIOUS MOMMA had been gone from his sight for 4 hours! NOT ONE????? (yes I am the worst Mother in the world for stating the truth that I wanted… LITERALLY WANTED my baby boy to mourn my absence… sigh… ) but he didn’t. He actually had a fabulous Daddy/Jude day… little stinker….
So then I finished out my day (again had a great time… ) came home and Jude was yet again overjoyed to see me (ok ok..yes that DID feel wonderful)
We sgnuggled and played, then I made supper and we all had dinner togheter. After dinner we played and snuggled some more. LOTs of deep belly laughter…
NOW my little baby boy is tucked in bed.. snug as a bug in a rug… cute as a freaking button.
Tomorrow, my new life will begin all over again – only with less trepidation on my part this time.
Can this truly be what life will be like now? I still feel … in truth I don’t really know what I feel… like I’ve lived my dream.. and now (no what am I saying… I will not walk that slippery slope) I guess it’s like my mom says… NOW I will cherish even more our play/snuggle times.. I will not take for granted any moment we share because time is fleeting..
SO in a nutshell I need to break down the day for you (then you will truly understand what an over the top drama queen I really am.)
- I left the house at 8:30AM
- Jude napped from 9:30AM – 11:30AM
- I was home at 12:30PM
- I left at 1:00PM
- Jude napped from 2:00PM – 3:30PM
- I was home at 4:00PM
LOL am I not a freak! How could he miss me… For all he knew I WAS home while he was napping! lol.. I’m a nut case!
To all you working Mom’s out there… I applaud you and (athough I know that probably none of you cried for me.. I will cry a little for you.. )
Jude kisses Momma goodbye – 1st day of work….
Let’s go on cherish each and every moment we have with our families!
PS: My wonderful family and friend brought me flowers, candy and a Jones Cream Soda (nothing better than that) to celebrate my first day. AND in my Jones’ my message for the day was as follows: A New Chapter in your Life is being written.… (fitting, no?)